Still Fat, but Going to Try Again

So my last post was from April 2016  and I have just been getting fatter. Since then, I have gone through little phases of "Oh I should get healthy" or "Oh I should start running again," but nothing lasted very long. I seriously have zero will power, love food, and enjoy being lazy.  Honestly there isn't much better than a Netflix and Chill except that the chill part for me is a huge bowl of cold, creamy, chocolaty ice cream.

Here I am again at a point where I want/need to make some changes.  I feel disgusted by my appearance, when I talk to my friends on the Marco Polo app, my multiple chins are very present and depressing.  I am even more disgusted that I get out breath so quickly.  I used to refer to myself as fat-fit.  I was fat, but if I needed to I could run a mile or shit even climb a flight of stairs.  Not now.  I get tired going from my couch to the freezer to get my ice cream.  That scares me.  I don't want to die.  I need to be here for my kid.  The thought of my husband raising her without me scares me.  He would never make her brush her teeth or read the best books with her.  Not only do I want to live, I want to be active and be able to do things with my daughter, so here I am once again, ready to make a change. 

I thought some external motivation would help, so I started an on-line weight loss challenge.  It starts Monday, so in the meantime, I am working to get rid of all the junk food in my house.  I have been eating Reese's peanut butter cups like crazy... they have protein.

I have been going back and forth about what eating plan I want to follow.  I have had good results with a lot of them, as long as I stick with it.  My top two choices are The Whole 30 and a Low Carb.  I have decided to go with the Low Carb option.  I think because it is just easier to stick to.  I like The Whole 30, but it really is a lot of work and the food prep is time consuming, plus 30 days without alcohol pretty much sucks.  The only thing I don't really like about the Low Carb diet is that I get really sick of eggs, so I will need to get on Pinterest and find some alternatives. 

Exercise... yep still need to figure that out, but I hope to do at least 30 minutes per day.  I know that doesn't seem like much, but it's a start. I will need to ease into this.

Will I blog...maybe some times it's a lot of work and remember, I am lazy.