Cake at 6:45AM and it got worse from there

So my day yesterday started with delicious banana pudding cake yest at 6:45 AM.  After a great workout, we celebrated our boot camp instructors birthday with a super yummy cake.  I was in heaven.  I told myself that because I had cake, I needed to be really good the rest of the day...that didn't happen.

Food:
Cake
a mint
string cheese
chick peas w/peanut sauce
apple
5 beers (oops)
1.5 chx fingers
a cheeseburger (not from McDonalds or anything, just our own grill)
fries

Water- Again I stop around 100 oz

It's only $1 a serving

Today was my first run since spraining my ankle.  It was tender, but at least I made it a mile.  I am not sure how I will be ready for our school's 5K on October 16th, but it will happen. 

Today's Food:
Banana with Peanut Butter (pretty much my most favorite thing these days.  It's really filling)
Apple
Yogurt
Lettuce w/dressing
Hard-boiled egg
Grapes
Mint
1 Dove Chocolate
Hamburger Helper (Yes, I know it's so bad, but it is good and it ends up being about $1 a serving, so it's affordable)

Water:
Why is it I seem to max out around 100 oz?  I feel like I am going to float away.

It was a student's birthday...Damn it!

I told myself I wasn't going to eat that damn cupcake, but I did.  I scraped all the frosting off and ate about 3/4 of the cupcake.  It was good.  The rest of the day I was pretty good as far as food is concerned but I didn't move a muscle.  I need to start running to prepare for an upcoming 5K. 

Food intake:
3 egg white and cheese omlette
Banana with peanut butter
Lettuce with Light dressing
3 oz chicken
part of an apple (it tasted like crap so I didn't eat it all...disappointing)
Broccoli and cheese
Chicken patty
1 Saltine Cracker

Water:
100 oz.

Down 2.4lbs...Hell Yeah!!!

Yipee!!!  Yay!!!  I am down 2.4 lbs this week.  I am excited!!!  I am glad that there are positive results from last week. I feel like I worked pretty hard as far as not eating a ton of junk.  If I didn't go down at all, I would have been pretty irritated.  I am hoping that seeing these results will help push me to stay on track again this week.  

Oh the Weekend

It wasn't a weekend of binge eating and drinking but it also wasn't a weekend of my best behavior.  I thought it would be easier to drink all the water that I am supposed to over the weekend, since I can actually use the bathroom whenever I want.  That didn't really happen.  I feel like over the last week, I have been pretty well disciplined at least more than usual.  I am hoping to see some results on the scale in the morining. 

Food Intake Saturday:
Egg white Cheese Omlette
Banana and peanut butter
package of Ramen Noodles
BBQ chicken
Broccoli
Baked Beans

Water:  Not much probably about 64oz

Food intake Sunday:
1.5 pieces of French toast with powdered sugar
4 pieces of bacon
Pot roast with potatoes and carrots
2.5 rolls
3 beers

Water: 96 oz

Fun Day Friday...Sort of

In the past I made Friday my day of bad choices.  Today it was just somewhat filled with bad choices.  I resisted the cake from starbucks and the soft pretzels that were in the office, but I accidently ordered 16 wings at Wild Wings instead of 8.  Oops.  I ate them all anyways. 

Food intake:
banana with peanut butter
yogurt
ham and cheese
grapes
16 wings (8 thai and 8 garlic)
4 Bud Lights

Water:
100 oz

Frozen Pizza...yep I ate it.

Ok, so one of my dilemas when it comes to eating healthy is cost.  Any suggestions on eating healthy on a very tight budget?  I am talking a Ramen Noodle, canned goods budget.  Also, Kevin and I take turns being in charge of the groceries each week.  So when it is his turn, he usually buys things that I wouldn't consider healthy...stuff to grill burgers, frozen pizzas, and Hamburger Helper.  So I try to eat better for breakfast and lunch knowing that I am going to eat garbage for dinner. 
Today's food intake:
Egg White and Cheese on wheat bread
Banana with peanut butter
Manwich meat (no bun)
grapes
2 starburst
2 slices of thin crust frozen pizza.
Water: 116 oz

Killer Caffeine Headache Today

Yesterday, I didn't get a headache from lack of caffeine until about 7PM.  Today I woke up with one.  I could have easily remedied the situation with a Diet Coke or a nail in the temple, but I didn't.  I drank water.  Finally about noon, I had to take a couple advil.  I haven't had as much water to drink as I am supposed to.   Bathroom breaks at work are few and far between.  I am hoping I will get used to it.  My body is a little tight and stiff from starting back to bootcamp.  Not thinking it will feel real good in the morning.  I did give in and have a beer with a friend, but I didn't even finish it.  Sorry Jodi for wasting a beer...

Today's food:
Banana with peanut butter
cheese stick
peanut butter crackers
tuna fish
strawberries
grapes
apple
mahi-mahi
steamed broccoli-yes it was cheesy

Drinks:  1 beer
             80 oz of water and still going

I have been called out!!

Today I started back to boot camp.  I love boot camp.  After camp, I was talking with my fearless leader, and she called me out, justly so.  She called me out for cracking jokes about my struggles with weight loss and being healthy, when she knows that deep down I really beat myself up about it.  She is totally right!! She also reminded me to focus on making one small change.  I am not going to be able to change everything I want to change at once.  I would go completely crazy.  So my one small change is to not drink pop.  I can do this.  I have done it before.  My goal is for it to be my change for the duration of camp, but I am hoping that it will be something that lasts longer if not forever.  I am setting the the goal as the duration of camp because I know it is attainable.  Small steps.  I will only be drinking water during the week, and may have an occasional beer or two on the weekends. 

I should also be writing down what I eat each day.  I will do that and post it here.  I know it will be boring to read, but if I know that I have to write it down for all the world, or all 14 followers, to read, then maybe I won't be so quick to put that cookie in my mouth like I did this morning.  Oops!!  Tomorrow will be better.

Today's food:
Macadamia Nut Cookie (yep for breakfast)
Fruit on the Bottom Yogurt
Peanut Butter Crackers
Apple
Banana
Tuna fish
Porkchop
Mashed Potatoes
Stuffing

Water: 71 oz and counting, not nearly what it should be, but better than yesterday.

Two weeks of nothing and I've stayed the same.

Well, I have not done jacksh&% for the last two weeks, except eat and drink.  I am surprised that my weight it the same.  I guess I wish it was higher so that it would be proof to myself that I can't do that and get away with it. I know it's not all about the weight, that it's also about how I feel.  I feel gross squishy and sluggish!!  I need to get moving and eat right.  It's so hard.  Why is it that I start the day out doing well, but the minute I deviate from eating healthy just a bit, I consider the day a wash and eat crap the rest of the day.  I may wake up and eat some eggs and fruit, but then at lunch toss a few M&Ms in my mouth.  Once I do that I am like, "Screw it, I already messed up my diet today, so sure let's have some more, and it will be no big deal if I eat a cheeseburger and have a couple beers for dinner. 

Ugh!!!

So I didn't weigh in this Monday because I left the memory card for my camera at work.  Is it too late to weigh in now?  Probably not.  I know it's higher.  I can feel it it my pants.  Can't wait to get back to bootcamp next week.  It helps keep me on the straight and narrow, well...for the most part.  When I am not involved in boot camp, I am a mess, eating junk and doing no activity. 

Terrible week, looking forward to making this one good

It's been about a week since my last blog.  I pretty much checked out this week and am expecting another gain on the scale tomorrow.  My ankle still hurts so I haven't exercised, but in addition to not working out, I have also eaten poorly.  I also drank tons of diet coke.  It was a pretty stressful week at work which consisted of late nights.  A late school night for me is about 11:00, considering I love to go to bed by 9:00. I used the excuse that I needed to stay up later as an excuse to drink caffeine, not good.  I am determined to make this week be a good one.  I will get back to eating better, drinking water, and working out.  I don't think I can full out run or jog still, but I will at least do some sort of physical activity.  How many times am I going to fall off and get back on this wagon??  I have no clue, but at least I still want to get on and haven't given up. 

I was acually expecting it to be higher.

I haven't really blogged in a while probably because I have been sitting around eating like sh&%!!  So, I was actually expecting my weight gain this week to be much much more than 2lbs. I was doing pretty well until about Thursday.  I went three whole days without Diet Coke, but woke up on Thursday and needed one real bad.  On Friday, I sprained my ankle, so not only have not done any exercise, I really haven't moved around a whole lot.  I have eaten so much junk since Thursday, here is the list: pizza rolls, beer, Hamburger Helper, Ramen Noodles, Sushi, beer, pizza, beer, french toast sticks, tater tots, steak and lots of potatoes.  Ugh, I guess I was expecting to gain about 10 lbs.  Here I go again, starting another week.  I try to set goals and often break them.  Why is it so hard?  Why is food so good?  Why is sitting on the couch so comfortable?

My exercise is put on hold for a couple days.

My workout on Wednesday was awesome!!  My legs are still feeling it.  I was excited for camp today and was looking forward to being partners with Jeff, so I could have my butt kicked again.  Unfortunately my clumsy ass tripped and fell right after the first exercise and rolled my ankle.  It hurts like hell, but luckily it isn't broken, just sprained..  Thanks to everyone who helped me at camp, especially Jeff with the ice and the ace bandage.  You guys rock.  Everyone at school rocks too!!  Thanks for helping me get it together, so I can keep my foot up.  So I guess it's a day of laying in the recliner... I can handle that.

Jeff, O-Legs, and Carbs

Monday at bootcamp I paired up with Jeff, our lone man.  It was awesome!!!  Such a great workout.  I really feel like I pushed myself harder because I wanted to try to keep up with him or at least not hold him back.  So today I paired up with him again, and again it was great.  He pretty much dragged me in our chariot runs and I am lucky I don't have a bunch of road rash.  I love being his partner.  I also got O-legs today at camp and as much as I would love to give Jeff the credit, it was from the workout.  Doing 140 (70 on each leg) bench step things and 140 duck steps left my legs shaking uncontrollably.  It was nuts.
So I started off the morning great, but I was absolutely starving all day!!  What the heck?  So I stopped by the bagel shop and got a dozen bagels.  No I didn't eat the dozen, but I probably could have.  I had one for breakfast, then one again later for lunch, along with the other stuff I packed.  Not good.  I also had some beer and hummus and pita chips this afternoon/evening, now I have beer butt chicken on the grill and stuffing on the stove.  I can't stop!!!