I am not going to lie...I plan to eat junk and drink beer tonight!!

I have tried to make healthy choices throughout the day today because it is a party night and I know that I will be eating crap and drinking beer.  I would be kidding myself if I tried to stick to any sort of diet or healthy eating tonight and then I would just get mad and miserable and nobody would want to be around me, so for the sake of others, I MUST eat junk and drink beer!!  Happy New Year!!

Back on the Wagon

I am not waiting until New Year's, like most of the world, I can't stand this anymore!!!  Being of work is very tough for me as far as making healthy food choices.  I go to the fridge or the pantry all day long.  At work, I am stuck to certain times I can eat and if I only pack certain things then I am pretty much stuck to that unless I give in to all the junk food that finds its way to the office.  My goal today is to drink at least 64oz of water.  I should drink more but I probably haven't even had a total of 64oz in the last two weeks so this will be a challenge. 

Food intake: (This will be updated as the day goes)
Protein shake
Banana
Protein shake
Tuna fish
1/2c raspberries
Salad with spinach leaves, hard-boiled egg, blue cheese, dried cherries, and poppy seed dressing,
1/2 slice of frozen pizza

Exercise: 1 mile run and keeping up with 4 crazy-ass kids

2 months off and up 6lbs...Oh Geez!!

So I have slacked for 2 months.  I can't believe that much time has gone by since I have blogged and paid any attention to my weight.  I have gained 6lbs!!!  It is so easy (and a little fun) to do, but now I need to buckle down.  I should just wait until the New Year like everyone else, especially since I will be in a Biggest Loser contest and the extra pounds will help, but I just can't stand it anymore!!!  Diet Starts Now!!!  Anybody want to go for a run with me this evening? 

Food intake

Monday:
Banana/pb
tuna fish
apple
smoothie
chilli with cheese and crackers
corn bread
poptart

water - not enough

Tuesday -
eggwhite omelette
English Muffin with veggie cream cheese
4 hershey's kisses
chilli with cheese crackers

I have been on a bender!! Beer, Pizza, Chocolate...and even Diet Coke. Ugh

So I am up .9 lbs.  I guess I am back where I was two weeks ago since  I was -.9 last Monday.  I need to find some motivation.  I seem to start over again with this dieting/healthy eating stuff every Monday.  I guess it's good that I haven't quit starting over, but I really need to make this a life change and not just a temporary change.  This last week at work was a little stressful, and this week will be too, with preparing for conferences that are scheduled throughout the week.  I think the bender I was on last week was partially due to stress and partly due to over indulging in fun. I was so ravenous.  I never felt full!  I am hoping I can get back on track and stay on track this week. It really does make a difference when I post what I have eaten.  My goal this week is to post it everyday.  I don't know why I haven't been.  I could be quick to say it was lack of time, but it doesn't really take long and if I have time for facebook, then I should have time for this blog.  So that is no excuse. 

I did run a 5K on Saturday, so I am proud of that, even though my body aches terribly.  We don't have bootcamp this week, so I need to make sure I am stepping it up and doing something on my own.

Down a Little, No Worries

I am down .9lbs.  I am ok with that, especially considering I haven't made great food and drink choices this past week.  Even though I really wanted to drink a Diet Coke this week, I didn't.  So I am proud about that.  I started the week drinking a lot of water, but didn't drink so much toward the end.  This week's goal is to really stick to the water thing.

I have not been a good blogger

I haven't blogged since Tuesday.  oops!  It's probably because I haven't been a good eater.  I don't remember everything I have eaten, but I remember most of the junk mainly because I felt guilty about it.

Food intake since Tuesday (no particular order and I am sure I have left stuff out)

Cupcake (it was a student's b-day.  I had to)
pork chops
mashed potatoes
a total of maybe 10 beers
macaroni and cheese
bananas with pb
pbj sandwich
pretzel m&ms
soft pretzel
tuna fish
chicken nuggets
pita chips hummus
apple
hershey's kisses. 
bratwurst
eggs
sausage.

It's making me sick just writing this list.

I almost folded on the caffeine

I woke up with a headache and blurred, wavy perpherial vision.  I really considered drinking a diet coke to help it, but I stayed strong and didn't.  I just popped a couple advils.   I am excited to get to boot camp tomorrow.  I haven't been yet this week, due to scheduling conflicts.

Today's food:
3 eggwhite and cheese omlette
yogurt
banana with pb
spinach and black  beans
grapes
string cheese
pork chop
broccoli and cheese
mashed potatoes

water intake: 140oz

Gonna Pee all this Fat Off

Oh my gosh.  I have had 170 oz of water today.  Maybe I will just pee all this fat off.  I have been trying to drink 160oz a day and today was the first day in a long time that I actually did it.  I will probably be up all night going to the bathroom. 

I was very good today at school.  I didn't eat any of the brownies or cakes that were in the office for a birthday.  I just walked right on by, even though they looked delicious. 

Today's food:
3 egg white and cheese omlette
string cheese
grapes
tuna fish
pita bread
part of an apple (it was another disappointing one...too mushy)
a pack of pb crackers
a piece of flounder with rice and broccoli

Water:
A hell of a lot of it.

Down Again...Starting to Like This

I was really nervous about stepping on the scale this morning, considering I pretty much ate like crap all weekend.  I bet if I hadn't, the results would have been better, but oh well.  It's a loss, so I am happy.  Seeing a loss motivates me to want to keep it up and do well this week.  I am starting to think my goal of being under 150 by Thanksgiving is attainable.

But it's been fun

I have not been very good this weekend, but it's been really fun.  Hoping I can eat well and try to make up for it today.  I know that's not how it works, but I am still hopeful. 

Friday:
banana w/pb
1 cup of snack mix
soft pretzel
tuna fish
apple sauce
2 beers
1 margarita
combo dinner at La Hacienda (beef enchilada, beef tamale, beans, rice)
Water-not enough

Saturday:
pbj sandwich
turkey burger
chips
pickle spear
2 margaritas
pretzel m&ms
lasagna garlic bread
water-not enough

Sunday:
3 egg whites
egg caserole
2 sausage links
a piece of monkey bread
crescent roll
bag of chips
banana with peanut butter

Water-lots more than yesterday.

Cake at 6:45AM and it got worse from there

So my day yesterday started with delicious banana pudding cake yest at 6:45 AM.  After a great workout, we celebrated our boot camp instructors birthday with a super yummy cake.  I was in heaven.  I told myself that because I had cake, I needed to be really good the rest of the day...that didn't happen.

Food:
Cake
a mint
string cheese
chick peas w/peanut sauce
apple
5 beers (oops)
1.5 chx fingers
a cheeseburger (not from McDonalds or anything, just our own grill)
fries

Water- Again I stop around 100 oz

It's only $1 a serving

Today was my first run since spraining my ankle.  It was tender, but at least I made it a mile.  I am not sure how I will be ready for our school's 5K on October 16th, but it will happen. 

Today's Food:
Banana with Peanut Butter (pretty much my most favorite thing these days.  It's really filling)
Apple
Yogurt
Lettuce w/dressing
Hard-boiled egg
Grapes
Mint
1 Dove Chocolate
Hamburger Helper (Yes, I know it's so bad, but it is good and it ends up being about $1 a serving, so it's affordable)

Water:
Why is it I seem to max out around 100 oz?  I feel like I am going to float away.

It was a student's birthday...Damn it!

I told myself I wasn't going to eat that damn cupcake, but I did.  I scraped all the frosting off and ate about 3/4 of the cupcake.  It was good.  The rest of the day I was pretty good as far as food is concerned but I didn't move a muscle.  I need to start running to prepare for an upcoming 5K. 

Food intake:
3 egg white and cheese omlette
Banana with peanut butter
Lettuce with Light dressing
3 oz chicken
part of an apple (it tasted like crap so I didn't eat it all...disappointing)
Broccoli and cheese
Chicken patty
1 Saltine Cracker

Water:
100 oz.

Down 2.4lbs...Hell Yeah!!!

Yipee!!!  Yay!!!  I am down 2.4 lbs this week.  I am excited!!!  I am glad that there are positive results from last week. I feel like I worked pretty hard as far as not eating a ton of junk.  If I didn't go down at all, I would have been pretty irritated.  I am hoping that seeing these results will help push me to stay on track again this week.  

Oh the Weekend

It wasn't a weekend of binge eating and drinking but it also wasn't a weekend of my best behavior.  I thought it would be easier to drink all the water that I am supposed to over the weekend, since I can actually use the bathroom whenever I want.  That didn't really happen.  I feel like over the last week, I have been pretty well disciplined at least more than usual.  I am hoping to see some results on the scale in the morining. 

Food Intake Saturday:
Egg white Cheese Omlette
Banana and peanut butter
package of Ramen Noodles
BBQ chicken
Broccoli
Baked Beans

Water:  Not much probably about 64oz

Food intake Sunday:
1.5 pieces of French toast with powdered sugar
4 pieces of bacon
Pot roast with potatoes and carrots
2.5 rolls
3 beers

Water: 96 oz

Fun Day Friday...Sort of

In the past I made Friday my day of bad choices.  Today it was just somewhat filled with bad choices.  I resisted the cake from starbucks and the soft pretzels that were in the office, but I accidently ordered 16 wings at Wild Wings instead of 8.  Oops.  I ate them all anyways. 

Food intake:
banana with peanut butter
yogurt
ham and cheese
grapes
16 wings (8 thai and 8 garlic)
4 Bud Lights

Water:
100 oz

Frozen Pizza...yep I ate it.

Ok, so one of my dilemas when it comes to eating healthy is cost.  Any suggestions on eating healthy on a very tight budget?  I am talking a Ramen Noodle, canned goods budget.  Also, Kevin and I take turns being in charge of the groceries each week.  So when it is his turn, he usually buys things that I wouldn't consider healthy...stuff to grill burgers, frozen pizzas, and Hamburger Helper.  So I try to eat better for breakfast and lunch knowing that I am going to eat garbage for dinner. 
Today's food intake:
Egg White and Cheese on wheat bread
Banana with peanut butter
Manwich meat (no bun)
grapes
2 starburst
2 slices of thin crust frozen pizza.
Water: 116 oz

Killer Caffeine Headache Today

Yesterday, I didn't get a headache from lack of caffeine until about 7PM.  Today I woke up with one.  I could have easily remedied the situation with a Diet Coke or a nail in the temple, but I didn't.  I drank water.  Finally about noon, I had to take a couple advil.  I haven't had as much water to drink as I am supposed to.   Bathroom breaks at work are few and far between.  I am hoping I will get used to it.  My body is a little tight and stiff from starting back to bootcamp.  Not thinking it will feel real good in the morning.  I did give in and have a beer with a friend, but I didn't even finish it.  Sorry Jodi for wasting a beer...

Today's food:
Banana with peanut butter
cheese stick
peanut butter crackers
tuna fish
strawberries
grapes
apple
mahi-mahi
steamed broccoli-yes it was cheesy

Drinks:  1 beer
             80 oz of water and still going

I have been called out!!

Today I started back to boot camp.  I love boot camp.  After camp, I was talking with my fearless leader, and she called me out, justly so.  She called me out for cracking jokes about my struggles with weight loss and being healthy, when she knows that deep down I really beat myself up about it.  She is totally right!! She also reminded me to focus on making one small change.  I am not going to be able to change everything I want to change at once.  I would go completely crazy.  So my one small change is to not drink pop.  I can do this.  I have done it before.  My goal is for it to be my change for the duration of camp, but I am hoping that it will be something that lasts longer if not forever.  I am setting the the goal as the duration of camp because I know it is attainable.  Small steps.  I will only be drinking water during the week, and may have an occasional beer or two on the weekends. 

I should also be writing down what I eat each day.  I will do that and post it here.  I know it will be boring to read, but if I know that I have to write it down for all the world, or all 14 followers, to read, then maybe I won't be so quick to put that cookie in my mouth like I did this morning.  Oops!!  Tomorrow will be better.

Today's food:
Macadamia Nut Cookie (yep for breakfast)
Fruit on the Bottom Yogurt
Peanut Butter Crackers
Apple
Banana
Tuna fish
Porkchop
Mashed Potatoes
Stuffing

Water: 71 oz and counting, not nearly what it should be, but better than yesterday.

Two weeks of nothing and I've stayed the same.

Well, I have not done jacksh&% for the last two weeks, except eat and drink.  I am surprised that my weight it the same.  I guess I wish it was higher so that it would be proof to myself that I can't do that and get away with it. I know it's not all about the weight, that it's also about how I feel.  I feel gross squishy and sluggish!!  I need to get moving and eat right.  It's so hard.  Why is it that I start the day out doing well, but the minute I deviate from eating healthy just a bit, I consider the day a wash and eat crap the rest of the day.  I may wake up and eat some eggs and fruit, but then at lunch toss a few M&Ms in my mouth.  Once I do that I am like, "Screw it, I already messed up my diet today, so sure let's have some more, and it will be no big deal if I eat a cheeseburger and have a couple beers for dinner. 

Ugh!!!

So I didn't weigh in this Monday because I left the memory card for my camera at work.  Is it too late to weigh in now?  Probably not.  I know it's higher.  I can feel it it my pants.  Can't wait to get back to bootcamp next week.  It helps keep me on the straight and narrow, well...for the most part.  When I am not involved in boot camp, I am a mess, eating junk and doing no activity. 

Terrible week, looking forward to making this one good

It's been about a week since my last blog.  I pretty much checked out this week and am expecting another gain on the scale tomorrow.  My ankle still hurts so I haven't exercised, but in addition to not working out, I have also eaten poorly.  I also drank tons of diet coke.  It was a pretty stressful week at work which consisted of late nights.  A late school night for me is about 11:00, considering I love to go to bed by 9:00. I used the excuse that I needed to stay up later as an excuse to drink caffeine, not good.  I am determined to make this week be a good one.  I will get back to eating better, drinking water, and working out.  I don't think I can full out run or jog still, but I will at least do some sort of physical activity.  How many times am I going to fall off and get back on this wagon??  I have no clue, but at least I still want to get on and haven't given up. 

I was acually expecting it to be higher.

I haven't really blogged in a while probably because I have been sitting around eating like sh&%!!  So, I was actually expecting my weight gain this week to be much much more than 2lbs. I was doing pretty well until about Thursday.  I went three whole days without Diet Coke, but woke up on Thursday and needed one real bad.  On Friday, I sprained my ankle, so not only have not done any exercise, I really haven't moved around a whole lot.  I have eaten so much junk since Thursday, here is the list: pizza rolls, beer, Hamburger Helper, Ramen Noodles, Sushi, beer, pizza, beer, french toast sticks, tater tots, steak and lots of potatoes.  Ugh, I guess I was expecting to gain about 10 lbs.  Here I go again, starting another week.  I try to set goals and often break them.  Why is it so hard?  Why is food so good?  Why is sitting on the couch so comfortable?

My exercise is put on hold for a couple days.

My workout on Wednesday was awesome!!  My legs are still feeling it.  I was excited for camp today and was looking forward to being partners with Jeff, so I could have my butt kicked again.  Unfortunately my clumsy ass tripped and fell right after the first exercise and rolled my ankle.  It hurts like hell, but luckily it isn't broken, just sprained..  Thanks to everyone who helped me at camp, especially Jeff with the ice and the ace bandage.  You guys rock.  Everyone at school rocks too!!  Thanks for helping me get it together, so I can keep my foot up.  So I guess it's a day of laying in the recliner... I can handle that.

Jeff, O-Legs, and Carbs

Monday at bootcamp I paired up with Jeff, our lone man.  It was awesome!!!  Such a great workout.  I really feel like I pushed myself harder because I wanted to try to keep up with him or at least not hold him back.  So today I paired up with him again, and again it was great.  He pretty much dragged me in our chariot runs and I am lucky I don't have a bunch of road rash.  I love being his partner.  I also got O-legs today at camp and as much as I would love to give Jeff the credit, it was from the workout.  Doing 140 (70 on each leg) bench step things and 140 duck steps left my legs shaking uncontrollably.  It was nuts.
So I started off the morning great, but I was absolutely starving all day!!  What the heck?  So I stopped by the bagel shop and got a dozen bagels.  No I didn't eat the dozen, but I probably could have.  I had one for breakfast, then one again later for lunch, along with the other stuff I packed.  Not good.  I also had some beer and hummus and pita chips this afternoon/evening, now I have beer butt chicken on the grill and stuffing on the stove.  I can't stop!!!

Ouch! Ouch! Owie! Owie! Ouch

My body hurts!!!  Yesterday was balance day at boot camp.  I am not a very-well balanced person (take that however you want) as it is, but trying to exercise while balancing on ball, versa, or bosu is very difficult.  I pretty much felt like I wasn't get much of a workout, because I wasn't really doing the excersises, for sake of just trying to keep balanced and not bust my ass.  Apparently, that was a workout in itself, because today I can barely move!!  My calves, my back, my arms, and even my armpits ache!!  My abs should probably ache, but I never feel them.  I wonder if it's because there is so much belly fat cushioning them?  This is my toughest area.  I see very little results in the belly.  It is frustrating.  Anyboday have any tips? 

Diet Coke update:  I made it through day one of being clean of Diet Coke.  I didn't get a caffeine headache until about 7:00pm, but I was pretty irritable yesterday morning.  They may have been because it was Monday and there is always so much to do.  I was also so tired that I was sleeping by 9:00 and completely missed the Real Houswives of NJ reunion.  I am sure Bravo will replay it all weekend, but I don't want to wait that long.

Celebrate with ice cream

I lost weight and what did I do?  Celebrated with ice cream.  Gotta enjoy something. 

It's a loss!!! Yeah!!

Ok, this is good.  I have lost 4.2 lbs from last weeks fatness and 3lbs overall.  I'll take it.  This weekend I ran out of Diet Coke.  Instead of buying more I am going to try to stop drinking it.  This is something I have tried many many times with much difficulty.  So beware, I may be crabby because of a caffeine headache.  Now, off to boot camp!!

They are finally here!!!

Pretzel M&Ms are finally here!!  I tried some while in Michigan this summer and have been waiting for them to get here.  Today was the first I have seen them in the store. They are delicious!!!!!

It's been a couple days

It has been a couple days since I posted.  I did a pretty good job yesterday until I decided to have a beer with friends.  One beer turned into about six.  Oops.  This morning at bootcamp, I pushed it pretty hard, so that was good.  But it is, after all, Friday, so happy hour was definitely on the agenda.  I am going to be great this weekend.  My weight will not be higher on Monday!!!

Funky Cold Medina

I woke up in a total funk today.  I have no idea why.  I got plenty of sleep so I wasn't tired and I am not mad or upset about anything, but I just wasn't feeling it today.  I went to bootcamp this morning which was good, and although it was hard, I can honestly say I did not put forth my best and I should have.  I don't know what the problem was.  It was like I couldn't get moving.  I have felt like I was in slow motion all day long.  I was also starving today.  I broke down and got chips to go with my lunch, but at least they were baked.  I sure hope tomorrow is a better day.

Hiding out to avoid beer

I intended on running early this morning before Kevin left for work at 5:30am, but I was just too scared.  When I started running last fall, I would get up every morning and go about 5:00, but then there were two cars that would drive the neighborhood really fast.  I think they were looking for each other to race, but it got sort of scary, because they it was dark and they would slow down at me.  I even called the police on them one day.  I am probably being paranoid, but I am just too scared to go that early.  I can go in the morning if it is slightly light out.  Anyways...this isn't an excuse because I did get my run in this evening, so good for me.

So tonight, Kevin had some friends over for burgers.  I have been hiding out in the house not only to give them guy time, but so that I am not tempted to have beer.  I know if I just had one, I wouldn't be able to stop, so I am just avoiding it. 

Bootcamp in the morning!!! 

I feel like Pizza the Hut!!!

I am disappointed in myself!!  My goal was to lose 2lbs and a fricken gained 2.2lbs.  I was a total slug who ate like crap all weekend.  It just goes to show that 2 days of crap has a greater effect than 5 days of working hard and being good.  I am pissed at myself and frustrated.  Don't talk to me today!!!  Just kidding.  I am irritated, but I now I know that there is no room for any indulgence.  I have included a picture of Pizza the Hut from Spaceballs. I feel like him!!

2lbs in the WRONG direction...Sh&%!!!!!!

A Weekend of Bad Choices

On Friday I chose to indulge myself and I promised myself that I would be good the rest of the weekend.  Well I totally lied to myself.  Yesterday, I did no physical activity.  I laid on the couch and watched Housewives of New Jersey for three hours while my daughter napped.  I also snacked all day.  For dinner I went to a friend's.  It was delicious.  The grilled veggies were great, but so were the brats, cheese curd, kettle chips, lemon muffin cookies, and of course the Bud Light.  At least it was light!  I love my weekends and definitely need them, but it is so hard to stay on track with my diet plan.  I need some damn willpower.  My goal was to lose 2lbs this week, how the heck am I going to make that happen by tomorrow? 

I am stuffed!!!

I was pretty good most of the day, knowing that I was going to a friend's house for pizza and beer tonight.  The pizza was great, but what was even better was the dessert!!!  Brownies with mint chocolate chip ice cream and hot fudge.  I am so stuffed.  I don't feel bad about it at all, because I have been pretty good all week.  I will probably have to eat chicken broth every meal this weekend to make up for my binge tonight.  Oh well, life wouldn't be worth living if you couldn't enjoy food once in a while.  Do people honestly enjoy healthy food or do they just tell themselves they do?

Damn Dove Promises

I was so pooped last night that I went to bed early and slept in all the way until 5:30 this morning, so I didn't run, but I did it this evening, so I am all good in the way of exercise. 

Every morning when I walk through the workroom at school it is a challenge.  There is so much stuff layed out for the eating and I just close my eyes as I walk by. Today, we had a grade-level meeting, and somebody...yes, you Deb, if you're reading this, brought in chocolate.  Now it was dark chocolate which is supposed to be good for you, right?  Well, those little Dove Promises chocolates, as you may know, have messages in them.  I thought the first two messages were a little boring, so I absolutely had to eat a third piece.  And yes, that is a completely valid reason. 

I was faced with a tough choice at dinner.  Kevin wanted to have pizza.  I know that I am having pizza tomorrow evening.  Although, I could easily eat pizza every night of the week, I decided to pass and have a lean cuisine.  He still opted for the pizza and I can smell it cooking right now, but I will be strong!!!  Tomorrow I will enjoy some pizza and probably even a beer or two.

Tired and Sore

I love bootcamp, but it has kicked my butt!!  I am tired and sore.  No additional working out for me today.  I am in my pjs and hitting the hay soon.  I know it's only 7:10.  I don't care.

Never Surrender

I pushed it today.  Woo Hoo!!  Started back to bootcamp this morning.  It felt so good to be back.  What is bootcamp you say?  It's a hard core workout at 5:45 am.  I am going three days a week for the next four weeks. If it worked out with Kevin's work schedule, I would go five days because I absolutely love it!!  So I got my butt kicked big time.  It wasn't as hot as it has been, but I was sweatin' like a whore in church.  I sweated so much my hands wrinkled like they do when you stay in the bathtub too long.  Then later today, I took my little nugget on a 2 mile bike ride.  I ended the day with a 1.5 mile run.  When I finished a mile, I was just about to give up, but Corey Hart's Never Surrender (best 80s song ever) came on my ipod and I knew I needed to keep going, so I pushed it just a little further.  Yay me, good day!

Back in a Routine...Hopefully this Helps.

Today, the school year officially started.  As much as LOVE summer, I am excited to get back into a regular routine.  One that doesn't include going to the fridge every thirty minutes.  This morning I got up and weighed myself.  The number went down a little.  I didn't go for a run this morning because it was storming out.
When I got to work, I walked through the mailroom and right past the big ass muffins that were out for the taking.  I wasn't going to give in that early.  I also packed a healthy lunch, well what I consider healthy (chickpeas, brussel sprouts, and a peach).  I did get my run in this evening and it was great because it started raining.  It was very refreshing.  I went a little further than a mile.  I think I will try to increase it every few days or every week. 
Bootcamp starts in the morning.  5:45 baby, so I am off to bed.

Had to Poop so I Weighed Again

Good morning, Big Yawn!!  Well, it has been a week!!  I was anxious to step on the Wii Fit scale this morning.  I knew I had did fair this past week as far as physical activity.  I did something everyday.  I didn't exactly push it everyday, but I at least moved.  I did not make very good food choices, so this week it is my goal to do better. 

I weighed myself this morning, and was down .9lbs.  I sat down to post it and felt a little rumbly in my tumbly.  I took care of business I decided to weigh myself again and went down another .2lbs.  Hey, I will take it.  I am not expecting huge Biggest Loser type weight loss here.  Yes, I would have liked for a little more, but I am please the number went down.  My goal for this week is 2lbs.  I think I can do that.

Lazy Rainy Sunday

It's rainy and all I want to do is lay around, watch tv, and pig out.   I have yet to do any physical activity today.  Hoping to get some motivation real soon.  You'd think weighing myself in the morning would be enough motivation.  Not so much!! 

Day 6

I knew today was going to be a challenge when it comes to physical activity, but I did it.  I couldn't get up early to run this morning because Kevin had to work, so I knew if I was going to run it would have to be this evening when he was home and it cooled off a little.  I wasn't sure I could keep motivated to do so, but I did, so I am pretty awesome. 

Today while getting a pedicure, I was reading a local magazine.  The editor talked about how her doctor wants her to lose weight and told her to just eat lean meat, green veggies, and berries.  Nothing else.  I think I can handle that diet.  It is pretty specific and has easy rules.  I just wish I had read about it before I did my grocery shopping for the week.  Oh well, I think I will give it a try, but just modify it this week, because I am not wasting these groceries.  So tonight for dinner I had some brussel sprouts.  Don't be too impressed they were in a butter sauce.  I also had a bratwurst.  Not exactly a lean meat, but I did avoid the bun.

I am nervous to weigh in on Monday morning.  I know I haven't worked nearly as hard as I should have this week.  Big Sigh.

A day of bad choices!!

I knew today would be tough.  I went to Squat and Gobble for lunch and pigged the hell out.  Eggs Benedict with home fries and a side of bacon.  Right now I am eating Taco Bell as I post this.  I have a lot of work to do this weekend if I want that scale to have a lower number than last week.  I did make one good choice today.  As I was grocery shopping, I really wanted some Moosetracks ice cream.  That's the ice cream in my profile pic.  It is my absolute favorite. Vanilla with fudge swirls and peanut butter cups.  My mouth is watering.  I put it in my cart and continued to shop, but ended up putting it back.  Also I DIDN'T drink any beer today.  Usually Friday is my happy hour day, but not today. 

The Secret to Running Fast

I think I did my morning mile in record time this morning.  It was because I was racing to get home and go to the bathroom!!!  Shouldn't have had that greasy burger yesterday. 

Today was ok.  I didn't eat great, but didn't eat terribly. I did stick to just one Diet Coke, which is one of the hardest things for me to do. 

I am really looking forward to the Monday, when we the students come, so I can get back into a good routine of not eating junk.  Tomorrow my team is going to have lunch at Squat and Gobble.  Hopefully I will be strong and make good choices.  EEK. 

One of my biggest struggles is finding a meal that is healthy that Kevin will eat.  He always wants meat and potatoes, which I love of course, but I need to eat some fish and veggies.  He will suck it up once in awhile.  He tries to be encouraging, by saying, "Eat whatever you want, I'll figure something out."  But seriously, it's ridiculous to cook two meals. 

Ohhhhh...Bad Bad Day!!

Well, today was not so good.  I started out on the right foot, went on a run, did some exercises, drank water...then all hell broke loose.  This week at work it's just teachers, so we can leave and get lunch if we choose.  Sometimes it's really nice to take advantage of that because we feel like real people.  When we have students, we have about 15 minutes to eat.  So today for lunch, we went to Five Guys Burgers and Fries, since it was close to the dollar store (one place a lot of teachers go on their lunch break at the beginning of the year).  If it's any consolation, I got the junior bacon cheeseburger instead of the regular one and my friend and I shared the fries.  Although I drank waaaaaaaaay too much diet coke.  Tonight, I have so much flippin' work to do that I will not have time to work it off...better go pop a few laxatives...Just kidding.

Day 2: I don't know why they call this stuff Hamburger Helper...It's fine by itself.

Ok, today I met two goals!!!  Yeah.  So far I have had 100 oz of water and there is still time left in the day. I am hoping if I drink enough, I will piss all my fat off.  Fortunately I don't have students yet, so I am able to go to the bathroom.  I also only had one Diet Coke.  I drink that in the morning instead of coffee or tea, because I can't stand either of those.  I don't like hot drinks and the only brewed drinks I like is beer.  I really like beer. 

I think dieting is extremely hard for teachers.  Today, the school provided Jersey Mikes subs, which of course I ate.  It looked a lot better than the lame sandwich I took.  I try to avoid any snacks and desserts that people bring in and leave in the office for people, but it's really hard.  Luckily this year, my classroom is pretty darn far from the office, so I am less tempted to go there and if I do, I am sure I burn calories on that walk.  I am dreading when the students come and bring birthday treats.  I love cupcakes (well, those from safe houses).  That will be hard.  I will probably take the cupcake so they don't feel bad, but then pawn it off on somebody else when the kids are gone. 

For dinner, I had Hamburger Helper.  I know, not a good choice, but I am poor and it's in my budget.  I did however, opt for the Cheddar Cheese Melt instead of the Four Cheese because it was 20 calories less.  So that is good right?  No, probably not. 

Day 2: I didn't die

I ran a whole mile without walking and didn't die.  It's going to be a great day!!!  My goals for to day are to only drink one Diet Coke (the Devil), and drink at least 80oz of water.  According to Laura, my bootcamp instructor, I should be drinking my weight in oz of water everyday.  So I should be drinking twice this amount, but I think I need to build to that, especially when I have a lot of meetings today, and can't keep running to the bathroom. 

Day 1: It fricken started with bagels!!!

I was all gung ho to make healthy choices today and only lasted until about 8:30am. I woke up early and attempted to run a mile.  It's been awhile, so I did have to walk some of it.  I then did 100 bicycles and 20 push ups.  Then I sit down to facebook and get a message from Nilla stating she was bringing bagels to work.  Ugh!!!  I was planning on eating bran or some other shit that tastes like cardboard, but I couldn't be rude.  So I enjoyed a bagel with some veggie cream cheese.  I also planned to drink a lot of water today, but that didn't really work out.  I left my water bottle in the car when I got to work.  The rest of the day was ok, I didn't binge or totally pig out, and I packed my lunch for work to avoid the temptation of going out to eat. Right now,  I am really craving some of those pretzel M&Ms I had this summer and keep seeing a commercial for. 

Let's Get Started

Today is the day!!!  Time to work hard, drink water, and eat well!!

Being held accountable

Ok, so I am starting this blog mainly to keep myself accountable for my weight loss goals.  I have decided to write about everything I do whether it helps me or hurts me in reaching the goals.  So if I binge on a bag of oreos, you will hear about it.  If I run a marathon (yeah right), you will hear about it.  Embarrasing as it may be, I will post my weight each week.  I feel like if I do this and it is public I will be more likely to stay on track.