Update and a New Plan

Update: It's been awhile! I'm still fat. If you have followed this blog or know me in general, you know this is a constant struggle for me. I do well for awhile then fall off the wagon and eat and drink whatever the hell I want. I am obviously allergic to that shit because it makes me swell (get fatter). When I was younger, it was so easy to just run or do some other exercise and lose weight, but now I am pushing forty and it seems no matter how hard I work nothing effing changes! On Christmas Day, I drank my last pop (soda). I definitely feel better as far as not being tired in the morning. I started running again and for a few weeks there I was running 3 miles a day.  No results! Nothing, my weight has just hovers around a super high number. Usually I have no damn shame in posting a picture of my scale, as you know from previous posts, but for real, it's bad. I am ashamed and I am embarrassed, so it's not happening at this point. I need to do something about and I need to follow through and be serious about it. Of course I would love to look hot in a swimsuit or anything for that matter, but right now I would be cool with just not looking repulsive. Most importantly I need to be healthy. I need to be here for my kid. Not only be alive, but physically be able to do things with her like frolick in fields of wild flowers. So here I am ready to make a change...again.  Are you rolling your eyes? It's ok I am too, but am not going to quit starting over when I fall. Who knows? Maybe one of these times, I will actually stick with something.  I have committed to sticking to The Whole 30. I can do anything for 30 days right? I have already completed 5 days. Follow me on my adventure. I likely won't post everyday, because I am lazy.

Disclaimer: If you are reading this and are thinking of reaching out to sell me your weight loss/better health products (Advocare, Thrive, Wraps, Arbonne...) or to get me to join your gym or exercise program, please don't. I wish you the best of luck in your business, and I am sure they are great products, but money is tight and have you seen the damn prices of healthy food? Plus I feel really bad saying no, and you don't want to make me feel bad, because that will make you feel bad. It's a vicious cycle.